Little things sneak up on you sometimes when you least expect them.
Here's the scene... It's been a long month. Such a long month. So much stress. I am finding it hard to keep my emotions and my attitude in check, honestly it gets worse by the day. I'm in a bad mood and literally everything is getting on my nerves. I walk into my office and I know that my desk is a mess... I knew it last week and I ignored it because it just wasn't worth the effort of getting mad. But today, today I'm already at my limit. I can't handle one more thing. I am desperately trying to make my life feel like it is organized and somewhat put together, rather than the train wreck it has become. The best way to do that (apparently) is to clean everything and then maybe in the process of cleaning the house and putting stuff in order, everything in your head will get all straightened out. Yeah, it doesn't really make sense but it's what I do when I need order in my head. Anyway, I say to Steve... I know that I haven't spent the time at my desk that I need to, and certainly not as much as you want me to, but could you please not throw mail and papers that you think I need to take care of all over my desk. It takes me hours to go through the mess just to get it organized and that's just putting it in piles that I then have to file. He just says, "sure... you tell me what the system is and I'll abide by it."
1. That wasn't really what I wanted him to say. I was looking for "sure honey, let me take care of all of that for you while you take a nap"
2. Does he not know me at all???? I mean, he just basically gave me the okay to go buy some office supplies!!! I need things to create a system, like paper trays and washi tape and a new filing cabinet and colorful paper and new pens to write on the new colorful paper.
Two days later, I am ready to tackle my desk. I have mentally prepared myself for the task. I have been thinking about how I am going to organize things and what I really need to do my home job in a way that takes care of the business, and also looks good and keeps me motivated. First, I got a new receipt scanner. I hated the way the old one saved in a format that you could only view from the app. The old Neat Scanner was a dinosaur. Next, I got some letter trays that I could label so Steve doesn't just throw things on my desk. The mail, receipts and invoices each have their own section.
I'm all set and ready to go. I bought some washi tape to make a pretty border for the tiny signs I am making to label my letter trays. Sitting at my desk, with my colored paper and my calligraphy pen, I practice different fonts and letters and deciding exactly what I want my pretty little signs to look like. Emorie comes in and sees me and asks if she can help me write letters. Of course, I say yes!!
At that exact moment, I didn't realize what I would have her do but it hit me pretty quick. I had Emorie write all of my signs. She didn't know what she was doing, but that is what made it even better. She wasn't trying to draw the perfect font. She was just having fun writing her letters with Noni.
I could not be more pleased with my little signs. Every time I look at them I think about me and Emorie's time together. I think about how smart and adorable she is. I think about how much I love being a Noni. I could have stayed in my funk. I could have told her no, because I wanted my labels to be perfect. Instead, a little girl who just wanted to spend time with me made labels that have made me way more happy than I ever imagined. It's really the little things that matter the most, Emorie reminded me of that.
“Sometimes, it’s the smallest things that take up the most room in your heart.”
